When my boyfriend passed away

At first I thought I'd be angry at God, but I wasn't. I just couldn't find the words to say to him. So I just prayed for those I love. Then I asked Gid to just help me through my loss. I just needed to know he would be there guiding my steps. I didn"t want to blame God because my boyfriend had choices. He smoked alot and during his life had done hard drugs in the past and drank alot. He abused his body and that's not God's fault. I truly believe God us supporting me through this time and I am grateful for that.