💔 The Ache I Can't Excape 💔 💔Today was my birthday. A day that should have felt like...

💔 The Ache I Can't Excape 💔

💔Today was my birthday. A day that should have felt like celebration ended with me lying in bed, feeling like my heart had shattered into pieces. The ache inside me is so heavy it almost feels physical—like I’m carrying a weight I can’t put down....

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LilyoftheValley · F

Belated Happy Birthday. I'm sorry you couldn't enjoy or celebrate your special day like you should. It's sad to know that he ignored you on your birthday. Your feeling of loneliness, despair and emptiness and the fact that you're both sleeping in separate rooms, seems like you're both in a loveless marriage. None of us (the readers) know why he treats you this way, it could be anything from him having disenamored of you/fallen out of love, it could be his retaliative response to something painful you did to him or it's his personality. We also don't know why you're both still married if you're both miserable in this marriage. You have to ask yourself if he is a part of your dreams or if you dream of living an altogether different life with a different person.

If there are reasons other than convenience that make you both still hang on, then maybe it's worth finding a solution. Perhaps you should see a marriage counselor to help you both solve your issues and to once again feel love for each other, if you both feel it's worth saving. Good luck.

3timesalady · 51-55, F

@LilyoftheValley Thank you for the birthday wishes 💕
Just want to make it clear to everyone. As far as I know I have been a good and faithful wife in every way, even sexually giving in to his preferences. The simple truth, I was never enough. He had other needs I as a woman couldn't fullfil.....

LilyoftheValley · F

@3timesalady You're welcome. By the way, you can always celebrate it another day with friends and family who care for you or treat yourself and go shopping! ☺

If that is the case, then you should not have to keep suffering that for the next 30 years. No way. Do not believe you are not enough, that's a mistake. You deserve to wake up each day happy to be you and content with life, with a new partner or even without one but no longer in despair and feeling sad. As for him, he doesn't deserve you.

You ask, ''how do I let go of a dream my soul refuses to stop dreaming?💔'' You don't let go of that dream. Our soul speaks to us of what we need so when the time is right, follow that dream; it may well be where your happiness lies. I wish for you happiness and real love! 💖