I have committed sacrilege before. Since I'm Catholic I used to desired to be with Holy women.

Something about fighting against the flesh and having a strong desire for us in marriage. Saying one last time as lovers to laying in the bed, but the flesh wanting to overcome us. Burning in passion fighting against hell and not wanting to go to hell. But ascending as one to the heavens. Hiding the Crucifix on the wall so God can't see as we laid. Knowing