I messed up again, but I can fix it. Eventually

Started gambling again after I had to say goodbye to my beloved cat.

I won a little at first, but ended up gambling away all my money and then some.

Luckilly I've paid all but one bill (gonna ask for an extention on the last one) and have plenty of food in the house. But still...

Now I'm hating myself for getting into that trap again, aswell as mourning my kitty 💔
Talked my middle sis earlier today and she asked me if I was safe or needed to be admitted to the psych ward again 🙈

The thought has crossed my mind, but that would make family constantly check in on me, not giving me the rest I need.

Atleast I can be a couch potato and not be bothered by anyone at home.

I'm still taking my meds as prescribed, and not touching alcohol or any other stimulants, so could be worse 🤷