Do you think you'll ever love again as deeply as your first?

Because y'know how your guard goes up afterwards & you never fully allow yourself to be that vulnerable again.

Or maybe you simply lose that "the one you love can do no wrong" type of endearment. Because anybody can do wrong, it's just facts. So you look at everybody with that thought like "so what wrongs are [i]you[/i] into" 🤔

Like I could see myself loving again but I don't really see myself giving anybody my whole self again. I'm all mine from now on.

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No I hope not because it always seem to end with pain, disappointment or both for me 😕. My guard has always been up and as soon as I put it down just a little, my heart got broke and I was disappointed at how it all turned out. So I definitely see your point and I agree with you, hopefully I can find someone who doesn’t make me regret loving them 😌

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User I'm not really sure how I feel tbh. Like I would want to love the way I have before but I don't see myself being that dumb again. I'm not sure if I'd ever fully believe it if anyone tells me they love me. My first thought is "yeah, for now"

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@ChiefWalksWith40oz I feel the same way, it can be scary because you never know anyones true intentions. I always think everyone is gonna leave me, and I haven’t been wrong yet. But sometimes I think what if my mindset, actually manifests that happening? So I’m not sure if I should think more positive and be more open to people or always keep my guard up and let no one in. Because at the end of the day when a relationship fails, I feel so stupid and I get angry that I let my guard down, even a little just to get hurt. But if I don’t open up at all and push everyone away, I might miss my real chance at that love that I want. Again though, I’m not sure who to trust anymore 😐🤷🏽‍♀️

ChiefWalksWith40oz · 26-30

@SW-User Yeah I know what you mean. I push everybody away but I don't mean to. I still want the affection though so I date, I open up, but I keep walls up & I'll walk away if it goes too far. I think most of us kinda develop our own ways of keeping certain distances to avoid catching feelings & shit.
You're right though our own walls block ourselves too 🤷

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@ChiefWalksWith40oz I do the same, and yeah I usually always keep most of myself completely private and guarded. Because it seems like people use you opening up to them to hurt you 🤷🏽‍♀️,