I am aiming higher. I am creating a proposal for a real grand in an institution in the US.

Even if I fail, there's no time wasted as I update my whole site, story, resume, cv, portfolio, statement, my everything art business, according to be seen by such high standards - that is a main reason I keep on applying for things, even if many times I spent months working on proposals that never move forward.

Is like, laying my eggs each month, regardless fertilization.

Nevermind fingers crossed. Lots to do for me.