Can anybody be help decipher what this could mean?

Ok, first, I know that dreams and visions are personal and are best interpreted by those who had them, but this is just throwing me for a loop.

I dreamed my late father visited me last night. The setting started off in his house, but then kept morphing in to various places we lived in my childhood. The conversation started with our usual bad taste humor jokes… I asked him how it was being dead, and he replied it wasn’t much, but it was a living.
At some point the conversation turned, and I asked if he knew when I was a child that I suffered cognitive impairment, and if so why they never had me tested. He looked very embarrassed and finally answered that they were young and totally unprepared to have a kid, and as such I was “disposable”…that early on they just didn’t care that much about me and it was easier just to shuffle me around (I spend a few of my childhood years living with my grandparents, moving between their houses).
He then said goodbye, and it felt like the last time I was going to see him. I woke up crying and screaming, half from what he’d said and half from him leaving me again.
I then woke up again, and realized that that was just another part of the dream. But in the dark I could see a cherub sitting in the bed beside me, alabaster like statue, and it scared the hell out of me. I wouldn’t/couldn’t turn away for fear it would come at me like a weeping angel. Without looking away, I ordered Alexa to turn the light on…no response. I did so again, and the light came on, but the cherub had vanished.

Now, the dream could just be a dream playing on my inferiority complex, and the cherub could just have been a trick of shadows in the very dim light at 2am. On the other hand it all felt very real.

I feel like I’m loosing my mind 🤪

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bookerdana · M

No ,you're not losing your mind,I've had several dreams of my parents over the years. I'll let you make of the angel what you will but natural explanations are plausible. We tend to work out our issues and fears in dreams

Zaphod42 · 51-55, M

@bookerdana The dream was whatever it was. It felt like it was my dad saying goodbye before departing to the great unknown. It only makes me sad in that I most likely won’t get to talk to him again. I miss him.

The cherub is another matter altogether, and I’m still trying to come to grips with it. I mean, assuming it was real, why a cherub? Why one of the rarest of angelic beings rather than a run of the mill one? I’m not even religious in the slightest…I believe in a higher being, but certainly not in any man made dogma surrounding it. So why a cherub? Again, assuming it was even real. I can’t think of a rational explanation…when the light snapped on there was nothing there that could remotely look anything even close to the basic shape of it, but that doesn’t rule out mundane explanations. But, assuming it was real…I’m stumped, and my more religious GF is simply in awe of the honor bestowed on me by the visit. I’m skeptical, but open to the extremely remote possibility of it 🤷‍♂️

bookerdana · M

@Zaphod42 So you're complaining cos you got a top drawer angel??🤦🏻‍♀️ There are more things in heaven and Earth,Horatio...

If he could visit you after death ,why wouldn't you see him ,later

Zaphod42 · 51-55, M

@bookerdana Well, what comes after isn’t known, so what will be will be.

And it’s not complaining exactly…now that I’m well past the fear I felt in the moment, more just baffled at the visit by an angel at all, let alone a top shelf angel. It’s a mix of super conflicted feelings really. My mother was a malignant narcissist, and like most children of one I have tendencies toward being one. I fight with that on the daily, which is probably a good chunk of the inferiority complex. So a visit from a cherub is exactly the sort of thing my mother would have been proudly boasting of to anyone who’d listen, which makes me feel that, assuming it was real, literally any lower angel would make more sense, or more likely just a trick of the senses. On the other hand, I saw what I saw, both with and without the light on.

So it’s not complaining exactly, more just a wrestling match between my inner demons and apparent outer angels.

And that is exactly the quote from the bard that’s been playing through my mind all day 😅

sree251 · 41-45, M

@Zaphod42 The cherub is part of the Jewish, Islamic, and Christian religion. Your cultural background would provide the answer you seek.

Zaphod42 · 51-55, M

@sree251 I was raised in a cult that taught a weird mix of Druid, Cherokee, Buddhist and Mormon beliefs. As a result, I reject all dogmas equally.

bookerdana · M

@Zaphod42

And that is exactly the quote from the bard that’s been playing through my mind all day

Maybe a heavenly sign! Angels are always messengers in Christianity,at least,maybe Hejust had an opening last night😀 At least you're ,now

Zaphod42 · 51-55, M

@bookerdana Today has been a long series of weird things that could be signs…license plate frames that answer a question currently running through my mind while driving, the notary invited to help with some paperwork being willing to go above and beyond because he too took care of his dad at the end, cars on the freeway actually letting me merge (a miracle by itself in SoCal).

Or it could all be confirmation bias at play 😂

bookerdana · M

@Zaphod42 I never question good fortune