My first time ever explaining what happened

Ok so I was 17 when I had a huge spiritual awakening and when I turned 18 I left to live my life in the beautiful nature until I fulfilled my sense of spirituality. I became on the street whenever I wasn't camping out in nature and well after some years I worked on finding true love with a person instead of just working on myself. Long story short I became lonely as hell and was drinking like crazy while I spilled my heart out to someone who didn't really value me for years. And I guess it worked up to it that one day I was just blown away by this crazy love where I actually had an insane connection to God and this person where it was like electricity running through my body 24/7 and it felt like I was on some hard drugs consistently. Seriously. 24/7. The sad part is I never got to talk with the girl 1 on 1 after the fact. Another part of this is also everywhere I went it felt like 30 or so people were walking with me everywhere