My post that shall send the bludgeoned horse into horsey heaven
Once again I feel like saying something publically, something I need to stop for a considerable amount of time at least, so I have to make this post as close to the ideal residing in my bosom as possible.
1. In order for me to talk about anything of consequence I have to study it to an extensive amount, I cannot just parrot what other people say, whether I agree or not isn't a qualifier in my estimation for rightfully saying anything anymore.
2. Therefore there has to be for me a silent age, so to speak that psychologically for me feels like it will be this way until I die.
3. There's this saying -- "knowledge is power", and for these last few days i've come from an only reading the classics mindset to informing myself about what's going on. The former has to be absolute in order to work, and it seems unlikely for me that I could live without knowing what's going on.
4. Therefore with informing myself with what's going on, I cannot speculate or echo what I'm hearing until I have a fairly good grasp on it all, this could take months, years, or I'd still be unprepared when I go to meet my maker.
5. Even the things I would enjoy talking about is out of bounds for me to talk about anymore, those are plateaus on which the thorny issues take place, it is all to be confidential to me, as everyone else has the feeling of freedom to speak their minds about sundry issues, I must put a gag order upon myself.
6. All of this should clinch the fact that my continuing use of public thinking out loud is ethically, and morally wrong, worse than keeping silent about certain things, for consider how lies and twisted facts get piled up by the nanosecond on social media and in real life, to seriously consider the casual widespread harm such voicing of error causes one, me in this case to shut up.
7. So why am I saying all of this if furthering the wrongfulness is unavoidable? I offer these thoughts before closing up my trap for good, for at least months, if not the rest of my life.
8. Ever since 2011 I've become addicted to typing things into the internet, SW was a major place since 2016 for me to pretend I had a clue as to what I was saying. Addiction is therefore cause number 1 of this post, number 2 is the intense desire to conclude my activity with as clear and compelling enough of a reason to do so, to do so no more.
9. I'm only scratching the surface here, my studies will intensify without my inappropriate commentary, and if successful, and if there is still a SW at that time, I could then see to becoming a part of the whole again.
10. Even trifles are to me grave undertakings, imagine then actual real world dilemmas that cost so many lives, and then my pledge of silence, and to grapple with it only to myself and the data brokers and big brother entities like Palantir will know about/
11. I wish all good people well, I am sorry I suddenly felt I had to quit being a part of the whole, but I hope this post can make it a reasonable action to drift away in the turbulent waters of information, and re-build my mind, for indeed, I am left very much destroyed mentally by what is being thought about.
Thank you ✌
1. In order for me to talk about anything of consequence I have to study it to an extensive amount, I cannot just parrot what other people say, whether I agree or not isn't a qualifier in my estimation for rightfully saying anything anymore.
2. Therefore there has to be for me a silent age, so to speak that psychologically for me feels like it will be this way until I die.
3. There's this saying -- "knowledge is power", and for these last few days i've come from an only reading the classics mindset to informing myself about what's going on. The former has to be absolute in order to work, and it seems unlikely for me that I could live without knowing what's going on.
4. Therefore with informing myself with what's going on, I cannot speculate or echo what I'm hearing until I have a fairly good grasp on it all, this could take months, years, or I'd still be unprepared when I go to meet my maker.
5. Even the things I would enjoy talking about is out of bounds for me to talk about anymore, those are plateaus on which the thorny issues take place, it is all to be confidential to me, as everyone else has the feeling of freedom to speak their minds about sundry issues, I must put a gag order upon myself.
6. All of this should clinch the fact that my continuing use of public thinking out loud is ethically, and morally wrong, worse than keeping silent about certain things, for consider how lies and twisted facts get piled up by the nanosecond on social media and in real life, to seriously consider the casual widespread harm such voicing of error causes one, me in this case to shut up.
7. So why am I saying all of this if furthering the wrongfulness is unavoidable? I offer these thoughts before closing up my trap for good, for at least months, if not the rest of my life.
8. Ever since 2011 I've become addicted to typing things into the internet, SW was a major place since 2016 for me to pretend I had a clue as to what I was saying. Addiction is therefore cause number 1 of this post, number 2 is the intense desire to conclude my activity with as clear and compelling enough of a reason to do so, to do so no more.
9. I'm only scratching the surface here, my studies will intensify without my inappropriate commentary, and if successful, and if there is still a SW at that time, I could then see to becoming a part of the whole again.
10. Even trifles are to me grave undertakings, imagine then actual real world dilemmas that cost so many lives, and then my pledge of silence, and to grapple with it only to myself and the data brokers and big brother entities like Palantir will know about/
11. I wish all good people well, I am sorry I suddenly felt I had to quit being a part of the whole, but I hope this post can make it a reasonable action to drift away in the turbulent waters of information, and re-build my mind, for indeed, I am left very much destroyed mentally by what is being thought about.
Thank you ✌
46-50, M
