I’m in a bad mood today
I would be happier, I think, if all there was was oblivion after this and it didn’t mean a damn thing.
Because I hate the idea that there might be an existence beyond ours that is pure and perfect and serene, blissful and eternal and…we are locked out of it. - Because reasons.
Long term my spiritual side has only ever made me feel sad and neglected and angry.
So what’s the point in believing?
I think I might be done.
I told the universe I can’t keep going like this with all this noise in my head. Dreams, visions…I have to let it all go, and it starts with letting god go.
I’m done feeling crazy and not really wanting to be alive. Because that’s the truth of my experience with belief in a beyond. It just makes me want to be there and not here in this moment.
Because I hate the idea that there might be an existence beyond ours that is pure and perfect and serene, blissful and eternal and…we are locked out of it. - Because reasons.
Long term my spiritual side has only ever made me feel sad and neglected and angry.
So what’s the point in believing?
I think I might be done.
I told the universe I can’t keep going like this with all this noise in my head. Dreams, visions…I have to let it all go, and it starts with letting god go.
I’m done feeling crazy and not really wanting to be alive. Because that’s the truth of my experience with belief in a beyond. It just makes me want to be there and not here in this moment.
