I Struggle With My Body Image
I'm not a bad looking gal by any means. I'm just not where I want to be. Lately I've been finding stretch marks on my hips and it's making me extremely uncomfortable with how I look. Add to that zit upon zit and my self esteem has dropped tremendously.
But the thing is that I have a supportive boyfriend that's constantly telling me I'm cute and beautiful and my body is perfect. I have my best friend who is also struggling as I am with the same issues and I look at her and only see beauty.
And then I look at myself and see my stomach sticking out more than I would like or my stretch marks getting bigger on my legs and it makes me want to never eat a single piece of food again.
And the funny thing is I can't remember how it got this way. I don't remember how I began hating my body to the point where I starve myself in order to try to lose weight. How much longer until I fall into a dangerous eating disorder? How much longer do I have to feel inadequate?
I'm already trying to change my self image bit by bit as well as exercise and watch what I eat to an extent. I plan on incorporating nor self control when eating so I don't feel the urge to run to the bathroom and puke.
Just baby steps for now. I hope to be able to look at myself at the end of the year and always feel good about how I look, and not just when my stomach is coveted by enough clothing that it doesn't stick out.
But the thing is that I have a supportive boyfriend that's constantly telling me I'm cute and beautiful and my body is perfect. I have my best friend who is also struggling as I am with the same issues and I look at her and only see beauty.
And then I look at myself and see my stomach sticking out more than I would like or my stretch marks getting bigger on my legs and it makes me want to never eat a single piece of food again.
And the funny thing is I can't remember how it got this way. I don't remember how I began hating my body to the point where I starve myself in order to try to lose weight. How much longer until I fall into a dangerous eating disorder? How much longer do I have to feel inadequate?
I'm already trying to change my self image bit by bit as well as exercise and watch what I eat to an extent. I plan on incorporating nor self control when eating so I don't feel the urge to run to the bathroom and puke.
Just baby steps for now. I hope to be able to look at myself at the end of the year and always feel good about how I look, and not just when my stomach is coveted by enough clothing that it doesn't stick out.
26-30, F
