I'm feeling meh

I noticed that because of my weight I tend to avoid exercises (especially in PE) where I'd need someone to assist me in holding me up etc. because I'm afraid that I'm too heavy for them to hold me. This is sad because I never learned how to do a handstand and I need that in PE. So when I did a like really shitty wall-leaning handstand in my room I got such an adrenaline rush. And now I feel like I'm missing out on so much stuff because I'm scared of people judging and rejecting me.