please i wanna weigh less

And… the fact that suppressing your emotions makes you have escape behaviours is just… awful cause, the escape behaviour that influences me is that I eat excessively… and I don't like it… cause, I´m just trying to make a fast, to a weightless but… is hard if I keep binge eating, I´m not going to weigh less if I keep eating like this
I'm not gonna reach 30 kg (66.1387 lbs) cause I'm useless and can't even throw up