I did a lot of self reflecting. I realized how shitty my family was

Especially my dad's side of the family. Sometimes you are blinded by what you think is love, you dont see people for who they really are. My parents did their best to give me a life that they didnt have but it's sad that people who should support you are the ones that hurt you the most. If i ever have kids, im making sure their grow up in an environment where they think they can accomplish anything in life and be happy when others accomplish things because thats means they can possibly do it too. Instead if being envious and bitter. Sucks how generational trauma is thrown on to us at our most vulnerable.