Should I just give up on trying to be fit and slender?

I gained weight since my dad passed almost three months ago (March 2022). I’ve gained 20 pounds. I ate a lot of junk food and stuffed myself. I was 237lbs and now I’m 257lbs. My doctor is going to be pissed.
I mean I failed my classes because I couldn’t keep up with it since I didn’t keep up with it. I did catch up eventually but I failed my classes. My grandparents got on me and said even though death is hard, I STILL need to focused on my education and I have a job to do. I need to get it together and the children don’t wanna see me crying all the time.
A month later I lost my job because I wasn’t watching the kids carefully and some got injured. I lost my job and that’s when the weight decide to pile up and I just sat in my room depressed, crying and begging for my dad back. I did go outside for walks but I curled up everyday crying and my grandparents forced me to go get some air and that’s no way to live. I gave up try to be slender. I’m now 257lbs and still 5’11” 3/4

Annie1899 · 36-40, F

I'm so very sorry that you lost your dad. It's completely understandable that you feel out of control -- you're grieving. You're not doing anything wrong. Don't feel you have to give up on being slender -- don't worry about your weight right now when you're in such pain. You'll be stronger in time, and you'll tackle it then,

caPnAhab · 26-30, M

I think

The best thing that ever helped my physical health and mentality was xcountry running or walking.

Aside from the obvious exercise, it was nice to get away from every thing and let my head get cleared up.