I feel like I am forcing myself to be straight???

I identify as a lesbian, and I am pretty confident in my sexuality remind you that I am a type of person who has to know everything if there's a question in my head I have to know the answer and I know we shouldn't put lable on ourself and let ourselfs explore things but what is happening to me is, I know I like girls and I don't like men in that way but for sometime ever since people have been telling me that it's okay to explore or it's just a phase, or it's fine it happens, I have this voice in my head mostly all the time looking at every single men older, , teenager, adult doesn't matter and I look at every single of them and ask myself do I like them and the answer is always no but I can't stop doing that because I can't answer myself how do I like women but not men because liking men should be normal and that's how everybody is, is there something wrong with me am I going to end up liking men because I'm forcing myself so much, what if I end up hating women with my overthinking but I love womens, as if I am afraid to like men or trying to stop myself from liking men but in fact I'm not but in my head I am, but with women it's easy I don't have to put effort to like them it comes naturally and during my teenage years( I'm still 19 btw), I've only had girlfriends never a boyfriend and yes I've kissed boys when I was like Very young but ever since I got self aware I knew I only feel attracted to women but after watching other girls so in love with boys, I don't understand how did I end up being a lesbian like how is it possible, is it gens, is it being too sporty or too much workout, I don't know I'm very confused it is practically killing my brain please help me, I'm sorry if I wasn't able to explain what I'm trying to say properly but I tried my best with how much I've figured out.... No offense to men out there I'm just very stressed at this point by all this mess in my head!!!! And I don't have any energy to date or be in a relationship with a men right now if you guys are you to say you should try being with a boy then see, even though I won't even think once if a girl ask me out though... Sorry

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HijabaDabbaDoo · F

You don't need to dissect your attraction towards women.
You're attracted to women and not men. That's the extent of it.

The more pressure you put on yourself to understand why, the more you risk pathologising yourself and thinking it's something you need to fix

Lucky003 · F

@HijabaDabbaDoo but that's the problem I don't know how to stop myself from doing it, I know I shouldn't dissect it but how do I stop myself, I can't stop putting pressure on myself to know the answer

SomeMichGuy · M

@HijabaDabbaDoo But the point is, if she's bi, that's also ok.

She needs to be ok with wherever her path leads.

HijabaDabbaDoo · F

@SomeMichGuy sexuality is on a spectrum. It's more socially acceptable to be attracted to men as a woman. Sometimes it takes years to unlearn the social conditioning to know where you sit with that. Her saying she feels forced to like men says a lot.

SomeMichGuy · M

@HijabaDabbaDoo Yes. All true.

And what I said is also true.

HijabaDabbaDoo · F

@Lucky003 You don't need to know. You don't owe anyone an explanation.
It sounds like you know you're not straight, go by what you know rather than trying to fit in a neat box that feels constraining

Lucky003 · F

@HijabaDabbaDoo you did understood what I was trying to say😭

Lucky003 · F

@HijabaDabbaDoo okayyy got it, you don't realise how much it means to me🥺❤️

HijabaDabbaDoo · F

@Lucky003 Take your time. You're under no obligation to have it all figured out right away💙