Meeting a need
Today I had such an apathetic 'couldn't care less' attitude which I couldn't shake. There was no excuse. I just couldn't be bothered to move. I had many things I should have been doing, but it seemed a lot more enticing to be lazy and do nothing. So, after sorting my son out, I went back to bed.
I was still slobbing at mid day when my dominant messaged me. I have known him maybe a couple of months now and we connected through this site. He has been a dominant for over 20 years and he is extremely good at what he does, and even though it's an on-line relationship, it works very well for me. He is calm, methodical and he doesn't get affected by complaining or attempts to distract or manipulate, which is good because I know I can be a brat.
He provides mentoring, weekly maintenance and any necessary discipline, which is always swiftly executed and I am thankful for the care and consideration he puts in. Slacking off on household chores or my studies is a weak area. It's one of the targets listed in my discipline contract so after a short discussion, I was told to get the loopy which is far left on this picture.
I bent over the bed and he guided me to spank in several sets of 25 -30, alternating between each cheek until I was very red with some dark purple raised welts in the characteristic loop pattern which that implement always leaves. Straight after the spanking I had a very hot and stingy bottom as you'd expect but, as usual, I also felt aroused and got pretty wet. I was given permission to take care of that so I lay on my stomach and rubbed for a little while but I didn't get release because my son came home.
Several hours later the redness has faded but there is a fair bit of bruising that I can feel when I sit. I enjoy the lasting tenderness and I always feel a unique kind of calm. It always feels good to empty my mind and reset.
Will I do better? I know enough that one spanking isn't a cure-all but I tidied up and was a lot more productive this afternoon. I also worked on my college assignment so it definitely helps in the moment. I was asked to write about this and I think the additional reflection as I write, as well as keeping a record also helps too.
I was still slobbing at mid day when my dominant messaged me. I have known him maybe a couple of months now and we connected through this site. He has been a dominant for over 20 years and he is extremely good at what he does, and even though it's an on-line relationship, it works very well for me. He is calm, methodical and he doesn't get affected by complaining or attempts to distract or manipulate, which is good because I know I can be a brat.
He provides mentoring, weekly maintenance and any necessary discipline, which is always swiftly executed and I am thankful for the care and consideration he puts in. Slacking off on household chores or my studies is a weak area. It's one of the targets listed in my discipline contract so after a short discussion, I was told to get the loopy which is far left on this picture.
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I bent over the bed and he guided me to spank in several sets of 25 -30, alternating between each cheek until I was very red with some dark purple raised welts in the characteristic loop pattern which that implement always leaves. Straight after the spanking I had a very hot and stingy bottom as you'd expect but, as usual, I also felt aroused and got pretty wet. I was given permission to take care of that so I lay on my stomach and rubbed for a little while but I didn't get release because my son came home.
Several hours later the redness has faded but there is a fair bit of bruising that I can feel when I sit. I enjoy the lasting tenderness and I always feel a unique kind of calm. It always feels good to empty my mind and reset.
Will I do better? I know enough that one spanking isn't a cure-all but I tidied up and was a lot more productive this afternoon. I also worked on my college assignment so it definitely helps in the moment. I was asked to write about this and I think the additional reflection as I write, as well as keeping a record also helps too.
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