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Paliglass · 41-45, F

I feel like I'm a disappointment to my partner at the moment. I was crying earlier. On the one hand I haven't done anything wrong on the other hand I feel I'm a disappointment. A "friend" of ours basically propositioned me. I felt really embarrassed and only managed to say "ur, no thank you" and I told my partner about it because it felt like the right thing to do. My partner is absolutely fuming angry at the guy that he said what he said to me while I was on my own and in amongst that he said I must have given him the wrong impression but I know I did nothing to imply I would have sex with this guy. I feel like he's disappointed in me and I feel really sad about it. He thinks I should of been more aggressive or something and more infuriated. It was all I could manage "er no thank you" Because I was completely taken by surprise and embarrassed. I felt really awkward. I could no way manage an angry response because I was too confused and uncomfortable. My partner can't seem to get his head around that. I told him what happened as soon as I saw him, I didn't want to tell him on the phone or via text because that would be more upsetting so I told him face to face. He said I should of text or called him. I feel like an all round disappointment even though I did everything I could and thought was right at the time. I've been as supportive or reassuring as humanly possible since telling him too. Still feel like a disappointment.

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Paliglass · 41-45, F

@SW-User my partner did text him. He replied saying he said it as a joke so you were exactly right there. My partner says that's proof he said what he said and that he'll show his wife. No one says that as a joke.
It has affected us, I do hope it will show him that I do tell the truth rather than lie but it's difficult between us at the moment because he's angry and processing it.
Thank you for your support and understanding. I don't have anyone to talk to about it. Firstly because it's embarrassing and secondly because I've found in the past that when I talk to people irl about my relationship it goes badly. I get judged. My ex used to make me go to bed at 10pm for example but you can't say that to people - I did, because I don't realise how things sound half the time and that opens up alsorts of opinions on a relationship. If I say what happened and that my partner was angry then people around me will feel protective and judge him when really he's bound to be angry and therefore bound to say a few wrong things and my natural reaction is feeling hurt and sad and like a disappointment. People interpret that as me being abused but it's how I react, I get easily upset because I hold myself to high standards so if I feel I've not met my own standards which include my partner feeling secure then I feel terrible which is me not him doing anything but people don't realise this about me because they've never been in a relationship with me and outside of a relationship I take no crap and am very secure. In a relationship I'm very soft. So it's been good to be able to talk about it with you. Thank you.

SW-User

@Paliglass You are certainly welcome doll. I'm glad to help. You aren't alone, many in rl wouldn't understand my relationship and such and such....lol. And I've been known to blurt out things I shouldn't. But we all live and learn. It sounds like your partner is taking proper steps toward protecting you. And really, if he wasn't angry your rl friends would say ''Well, he obviously doesn't care!'' so you are darned if you do, and darned if you don't. From my viewpoint it looks positive between you two. NOT so positive for the ''friend'' who stepped out of line.