I think I'm maturing spiritually.

I used to be sway by woman easily or tempted by some women. Now it hardly fades me, the desire is still there but no the woman I'm looking for in both inside and outside can match what I seek now, now I'm wrong. I met a couple a girls I thought I had things in common. The others though were their looks. You see as a kid I tried to craft he most beautiful girl. I will usually encounter women with physical traits I thought fit that one girl. I say it was pure unadulterated beauty I envision. maybe I don't how they look without make, I just know they were attractive. I saw a nun so beautiful in 2016 saying the our father in Spanish. She had brown hair with tints of yellow hair, and blue eyes. I never seen such a madam. That day I was sad and happy for her, and I said a prayer for her.