This is my challenge to you: explain why you are existing instead of not existing.
Can’t be done by anyone at this time. Theories like quantum foam give a hint at the concept of nothing and the existence of matter. Abiogenesis a basis of the origin of life. Evolution, the diversity and progression of life. But you’re looking for a single primary cause for everything which can not be known.
You’re giving it human qualities, an agenda for creation, but all you end up doing looping back to the same problem. Your god requires an origin and a reason for its purpose. If the universe has no reason for existing, neither does a creator, ultimately . If he exist to create, then he exist as an agent for something with an agenda for creation. The same regression you gripe about.
Your god only moves the question back a step. Answers nothing. The flaw in your belief is you want to matter , you want your existence to count for something , rather than to be the result of what is. There doesn’t have to be a why. There just is.
