Three months sober

I collected a new "chip" on Monday.

I feel less of a fraud now. There was a young girl, new mother, at the meeting and arguing (with herself mostly) that she wasn't an alcoholic despite drinking three bottles wine on Sunday after promising she wouldn't. Flashback to that hotel and that feeling 3 months ago for me!

The chip fell out my purse as I paid for my coffee this morning. Guy behind picked it up. "Day at a time" he said as he handed it back. Clearly he knows something of the programme.

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MartikaDuponte1 · 36-40, FVIP

Emotions come and go, Angela. Rational and Irrational.

Even a decade and a half later self-doubt can come.

I remember being something like 5 years in recovery, I had made an alcoholic drink for a friend (I was fine doing that) and, by accident and just general talking away, I found myself picking up HER drink and almost putting it to my lips!

Cue quivvering hands...crying....feeling scared. That was all with me for a few days until I got myself together.

I felt a fraud then. There's days when I feel one now. Part of the human experience. Those thoughts go.

You're doing great. One minute. One hour. One Day. Then the next.

M x