The good news is every month on the first I promise myself no booze so I actually stay sober that day.. the rest of the month.. not so great!

Bro, I think I quit drinking for good. I tried it before, and kept it for a month or 3, but then relapsed, so I can't make an indefinite statement about it rn, 'cause it's been only a month. But this time is different, I can really feel it in myself, that this is it, I'm done with alcohol for the rest of my life.
I hope you get a life altering moment too, that will get u to stop for good.