I Am Thankful Of All The Bad Times [I Am An Alcoholic]
This last year has, for some, been a very trying time. Human beings are, by design, made to interact with each other and to socialise.
The impending doom, fed by the media, has not been god for those of us with fragile minds and resolves...
But I am proud to say that, however hysterical I did get last year - and for a few weeks there I was peaking, let me tell you - I never once reached for a drink.
I know it was at the back of my husband's mind, when everything cracked off, as I had been around a year into my sobriety before and, with my grandmother dying, I went off the deep end for a month or so.....but that was then...this is now.
Truth is, I've lost count over when it was. I've been so blinkered and fixed on one step at a time that I'm not sure of the year, let alone the date...but I think it's around 10 years or so, from last January.
Those bad times have pushed me forward. My mantra has always been the words that the doctor said the first time, when I was convinced I had a back problem. Nope, Cirrhosis of the liver. It was spring...and I had just recovered after Swine Flu...and the doc diagnosed my issue and said that if I didn't stop drinking I wouldn't see Christmas...
That sobered me up right away...
So I keep that in mind...and move on...
M x
The impending doom, fed by the media, has not been god for those of us with fragile minds and resolves...
But I am proud to say that, however hysterical I did get last year - and for a few weeks there I was peaking, let me tell you - I never once reached for a drink.
I know it was at the back of my husband's mind, when everything cracked off, as I had been around a year into my sobriety before and, with my grandmother dying, I went off the deep end for a month or so.....but that was then...this is now.
Truth is, I've lost count over when it was. I've been so blinkered and fixed on one step at a time that I'm not sure of the year, let alone the date...but I think it's around 10 years or so, from last January.
Those bad times have pushed me forward. My mantra has always been the words that the doctor said the first time, when I was convinced I had a back problem. Nope, Cirrhosis of the liver. It was spring...and I had just recovered after Swine Flu...and the doc diagnosed my issue and said that if I didn't stop drinking I wouldn't see Christmas...
That sobered me up right away...
So I keep that in mind...and move on...
M x
36-40, F
