Well, I am not gonna lie, this isn't going to be a good day.😔
Last night, all 3 girls and I started with the "Race to the Restroom" phase. Along with the headcahes from heck. Not fun!😔
This morning, when I got up at 3 am to take my daughter to work, I felt like a semi truck ran me over, and then back up to finish the job. All my muscles are aching. I'm moving as slow as molasses on a cold winter's day.🫤
I am exhausted, but when I tried to lie back down, like I usually do after I take her to work, I started shivering with chills, and my mind wouldn't shut up. My teeth are chattering as I type this, and a nice hot bath seems to be in the future.🤒
My eyes are dry, and my lips are cracked and dry. On top of that, my mind is saying, "Hey, if you just go get one of those awesome wintergreen mints, you know the ones that taste like the olden days candy cigarettes (my favorite things in the whole world) from the pantry, this could all end.😵💫
They just melt in your mouth. Come on ya know ya wanna just have one..One wouldn't hurt and it would take the edge off!" Stupid brain. Brica braca grumble bummble bad word bad word...🤬
Ughhh , my stomach is doing flip-flops and I am starving and nauseous at the same time. I am going to let my daughters sleep in today. the longer they can avoid facing this, the better.
The saddest thing is that I was clean for the better part of 3 years, except for an occasional cheat day. No more than 3 a year, but two things happened. My seasonal affective disorder kicked in with the days getting shorter, and I couldn't afford to see a doctor right now. However, I found out sugar worked as good as antidepressants, at least at first.😔
The second thing that happened was I read about the dumbest diet in the world called The Sugar Diet. My addicted brain was all about that. My mind went into high gear, working overtime to make sure we tried the greatest diet in the world.🙄 It let us eat everything we had been avoiding for 3 years and promised great weight loss results. Well, I did lose a little weight, but trust me, what I am going through right now was not worth the 5 pounds that were probably water anyway.🫤
Well, I am going to stop writing this now and get into a hot bath. The good thing is that this will eventually get better...👍
@PepsiColaPWe do eat fresh fruit after a few months, but at first (for us) it increases the cravings. Thank you for the wonderful idea, though, and I'll tell you those grapes sound amazing about now.🙂
@HootyTheNightOwlPlease excuse me, but I am dealing with a bit of brain fog today. By "kinder", do you mean easier, and by "everyone here", do you mean my daughters and I? I am going to reply with the assumption that this is what you mean. 🙂
Let me proceed with this thought in mind, then. My daughters are all adults, and this is a process we have gone through before, so we knew it would be rough. When we have tried in the past to taper off, this has just resulted in way too many opportunities for relapse. It takes far more willpower to taper off than it does to just get through the process as fast as possible. Cold turkey has always worked best for us when we quit anything. 🙂
I have quit both tobacco and alcohol in the same manner, though I do admit to having tried the tapering off method with both these things before, just doing it cold turkey. I failed, many times, in tapering off, but succeeded in using the cold turkey method.🙂
In theory, it would be kinder to taper off, but in reality ( at least for us) is far kinder to just get through the process and succeed rather than to fail over and over again, finally giving up.🙂
I want to thank you so much for your kind advice. I really am grateful for it, and your advice is wonderful advice for someone with more willpower than I have.🙂
Thank you for taking the time today to add a thoughtful and caring comment to my post. Your time is of great value, and I realize this. I do appreciate you.🙂
