Been out of rehab for a month.
Still have those urges from time to time but I’m gonna try my best to stay away from it.
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Graylight · 51-55, F
One month. Hence the "nothing's fun" feeling.
Let's unpack things here. You are one month free of chemicals that cloud, pollute and eventually kill. That's a [i]good [/i]thing. You're body is already healing and happy.
Now look, are drugs and alcohol fun? Yup. Was it wild and crazy times with a better personality and people were nicer? Yup. Will you miss that recklessness and adventure and freedom in your head? Yup, but [i]there are other worlds to explore.[/i]
It's not fun right now because it's not supposed to be, This is where you learn and condition yourself to the fundamentals of sobriety, and it's about much more than keeping a glass, pipe or pill from your lips. It's about a whole world perspective shift.
And it's a chance to remake yourself into absolutely anything you want to be. Not everyone gets that chance. Not everyone takes it. If you were in rehab, you likely ran across the 12 Promises. Read them every day. They absolutely come true whether you think they're BS right now or not.
Hang in there, give it time. 30 days turns into 90 turns into a year turns into 10. But first steps first, right? ANd if you do stumble, it's not a failure; it's a chance to do better next time with better understanding. Be prudent, though; those chances are finite.
Keep coming back, reach out when you need support (or an ear or laughter or diversion). Stay near well-light people and places. Welcome to the rest of your life.
Let's unpack things here. You are one month free of chemicals that cloud, pollute and eventually kill. That's a [i]good [/i]thing. You're body is already healing and happy.
Now look, are drugs and alcohol fun? Yup. Was it wild and crazy times with a better personality and people were nicer? Yup. Will you miss that recklessness and adventure and freedom in your head? Yup, but [i]there are other worlds to explore.[/i]
It's not fun right now because it's not supposed to be, This is where you learn and condition yourself to the fundamentals of sobriety, and it's about much more than keeping a glass, pipe or pill from your lips. It's about a whole world perspective shift.
And it's a chance to remake yourself into absolutely anything you want to be. Not everyone gets that chance. Not everyone takes it. If you were in rehab, you likely ran across the 12 Promises. Read them every day. They absolutely come true whether you think they're BS right now or not.
Hang in there, give it time. 30 days turns into 90 turns into a year turns into 10. But first steps first, right? ANd if you do stumble, it's not a failure; it's a chance to do better next time with better understanding. Be prudent, though; those chances are finite.
Keep coming back, reach out when you need support (or an ear or laughter or diversion). Stay near well-light people and places. Welcome to the rest of your life.
