Not An Addict Myself..

...but it can be a bit tough loving someone that is a big drug user.

[i]Was[/i] is more the operative word.

I'd known her since my early 20's and, thankfully, giving up cocaine when I hit 40 or thereabout. That's a long time as a user in my company.

Dealing with the highest of highs with her being so damn hyper and a blabbering on...and then coming crashing down like someone's taken out her battery. Sleepless nights because of constant fidgeting or just talking my head off.

I've never been around anyone with a drug problem before. It was all a learning experience.

Cocaine has a habit of feeding paranoia and also making the individual feeling superhuman and super sociable. Drinking and not feeling the buzz from the drink so putting away more and more alcohol was a typical night out with her. Me? Trying to stay relatively sober to make sure that she didn't do anything even more stupid. Very stressful!

It could be quite embarrassing, watching her go out to the bathroom every hour or so and come back with some power on her nose, especially when you are in company. What she does reflects on me, her partner.

..and then, with the paranoia , moments of mistrust of me. What did I do? *Sigh* Just took it.

You do that when you're in love.

We had a period that we split up and I tried to put the past in the past. We bumped into each other again many years later, all was going good until her mum past away.

Then she just did a massive blow-out on cocaine for 2 weeks. That nearly broke us, but thankfully, she came out of that issue...

Off and on cocaine for the next few years, and we got married and had a child together. When our daughter got to around 2 years old she stopped taking it all together.

...and she became the woman that I loved in the first place.

Being a drug addict is no doubt very difficult, but dealing on the periphery with the fall out can be just as hard.

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