Relaspse ramble shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh [I Addiction]

I drank again... Way too much and I'm stupid for making such a mistake.... I carved the shit out of my arm for it but....... I feel as though that isn't enough of a punishment.. Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh.. I won't do anything too drastic, I'm not suicidal or anything........ Buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut I really want to cut myself so much that I bleed out and am too weak for about 4 days or so just laying on the floor starving and dying of thirst then BOOM!! Get up malnourished and water deprived so I learn my god damn lesson. I know there's AA and whatever but, the guilt just crushes me so much.

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Ohbabe · 22-25, F

therapy babe. You’re doing this for a reason ♥️

bearinthehalfwayhouse · 26-30, M

@Ohbabe Therapy? More like... [i]gay-rapy[/i] thooooooo... We shall learn in time, young one. ┬┴┤•ᴥ •ʔ/

Ohbabe · 22-25, F

@bearinthehalfwayhouse you remind me of my brother lol. I’ll bother you until you understand that people care about you. No matter how much you want people to hate you in order to validate the hate you feel for yourself. No matter how much you try to cope by making jokes. I’ll be here. Reminding you that I dont have to know you to care about you. And that im aware that probably very very very deep down there’s a guy that’s really hurt and sad. See ya later!

bearinthehalfwayhouse · 26-30, M

@Ohbabe Oh yeah I'm not denying any of that, I'm just kinda lost at this juncture of all junctures but hey......................... Nothing another drink can't handle yooooooooooooo!! No hate, pimp. ┬┴┤•ᴥ •ʔ/🥃