I Struggle With Addiction

I’ve had a bad alcohol and Xanax addiction for years I’ve been so hush about xans even when I was on the site before I never mentioned them. I’m a week clean today from pills. I’d abuse others when I wasn’t able to find them but I really enjoyed Xanax. I would always drink too much get drunk and make mistake that destroyed my life on so many occasions.

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Justiceforall · M

One step at a time today a week and before you know it a month then a yr and then ten yrs it's hard but don't give up even if you stumble and fall. Get back up and try again. You can say that because I stumbled a few times along my journey to stop using alcohol and now with cigarettes, I been sober for ten yrs now I believe. And just started trying to give up the smokes but I can say I'm proud of you even though I don't know you because you are trying.

SW-User

@Justiceforall thank you, I made the decision on my own. I had my family and friends encouraging me to give both of them up for a while and o never would. I lost the respect of my two best friends and my nana who adopted and raised me when I was 7. And finally after my life collapsed I realized the high or drink wasn’t the same as it use to be I don’t enjoy it as much, and mostly lost interest I them. I’ve been doing them off and on for a few weeks. But it’s been about 10 days sense my last drink and a week since I got took a pill. I’m still smoking weed but that hasn’t seemed to be as problematic.

Justiceforall · M

@SW-User your doing a great job, I basically lost my family members except for a sister that thought enough about me to try and help me get my life back together again. I believe I have for the most part. My family still has doubts about me but that's ok I was a alcoholic for alot years and can't expect them to change right away either. I thing I would do is when the thought crossed my mind to drink I would tell myself no I don't need it, it needs me and it ain't getting me again. Sounds silly I know but it worked for me. Never give up on what you want keep up the good work

SW-User

@Justiceforall I’m glad you found something to work for you I know it’s only been a week but I haven’t had a desire to do either one of them.

Justiceforall · M

@SW-User that good you must avoid the triggers that make you want to do those things, my trigger was everything I wanted to drink when something bad happened when good happened or when nothing happened because I was bored.