I Struggle With Addiction

I constantly say I’m going to slow down, or stop, take a break. But it just comes back. I choose it over what I need to do. It’s an escape from reality and a sunshine, light, fire, flame, smoke to a great escape. The first hits the best because you know after that your going to keep going and each time you just feel sleepier, or happier. The music sounds better, the food taste better, and your brain isn’t as active or nerves. Your just free. No more anxiety. Not as much pain. You just sit and swell in a smoke fil-ae.... (haha) all about natural until it takes me over. I choose to, I just feel like it gives me a hug when no one else does