I don't regret having kids, trying to have relationships, leaving my 2nd ex, buying a house by myself at 55, embarking on being a reptile parent...

But I sure wish I knew how to do relationships properly and wasn't now so frightened of dating, etc. that I have an almost automatic 'block' defence against any semblence of potential romantic connections so things are stopped at the 'gate' before they get started. Which sounds like an oxymoron.. Not much can be done to change it, so I accept it for what it is.