How often do you let yourself down?

I usually achieve my main goals in the long term. However, I let myself down by taking more time than I should due to pain and depression. Overall I tend to be good with the things that are linear and I can control.

Everything else tends to be difficult. For instance, health problems and emotions as well as relationships, all non-linear and hard for me to influence. Insomnia is another example. It's like trying to keep a sand castle up.

The worst part is that I am blamed for letting myself down in ways that I cannot necessarily change. Much of this is part of a personal 'foundation' in life that takes luck to fix and transforms exponentially.