I Am Worried

I'm terrified for my future! I'm graduating high school and this will be the first summer i have not had a sport to occupy all of my time. I will be working but that's like every other day. When I'm alone and free, i contemplate my life worth, I think of suicide. I used to cut and I've been getting the urges lately. (Not for attention, only two people ever knew) I decided I should tell my counselor about my worries and my past (I've never told her) but I don't know how to do it, I don't know if I'm strong enough! How should I do it, I'm afraid my life could end this summer or I could relapse and I don't want to, but the urges will take over. I don't know what to do

bigjohndl · 70-79, M

You need to busy yourself with work all you can and on the days off, busy yourself doing service for others. Mow your neighbors lawns, take them to the store, anything to do for others and keep yourself busy.