I Need to Take Better Care of Myself

hmmn .. .
I'm in a mood right now that I could ….sigh.
So, I am asking nicely not to piss me off any farther with smartass comments. Let me sound off.. thank you.
1... I know others have it worse..got it!
2. At lest I am REAL.
exhale...……..
This is a side I hide.
I have been so obsessed in making life better for my husband, for months, my health has gone.
I am not a complainer but ..lol.. I am now at this very moment! 🤨
I am a worker.
lordy be... spit it out woman...

Since Saturday, at 6:30pm I went to bed. Stayed there till this morning. My glands were swelled, my body fighting something. Nothing else but fatigue.
I am scared my Epstein Barr virus/Chronic Fatigue Syndrome may have kicked back in with my stress and go..go… go.. attitude. Coffee, cigs... Not sleeping well ..too much on my mind.
blah blah blah.....
sigh. ok.. the past couple of days, I could not function. It was so cold out too. The nights dropped down in the low teens and the highs have been below freezing....Any old way... I am very attentive to my fur children.
I got totally pissed off when I found out the pets this morning had no water!!! Frozen solid... for how long?
So, I asked my husband, he said I broke the ice this morning, the past two morning! ...
Well... whoopy!
You see, if I had my strength, I'd been out several times to give fresh water!!!
Yup..... my voice got a bit defensive and louder but... wth!
I then openly admitted how I thought... you all ain't got the time to know the rest of the story.
But it wasn't nice.

So you see, I NEED to take better care of myself. Psssttt… my old man is spoiled rotten! I am woman...hear me roar! sigh... I feel better.