I Am An Introvert
..which is something I know everyone says, and it might be true for all of them, I don't know. But it's moments like now when I debate with myself whether or not I keep to myself too much.
I worked about 5 years in customer service before starting my warehouse job 6 months ago. And I did enjoy talking to the different people. But over time it really started to wear on me, because I'm definitively a people pleaser and would suffer extreme bouts of depression due to dealing with all of the different feelings people had. Especially when they were upset and I felt like it was maybe because of me. I wanted a break, however long, from having to take all that on all the time. Though I loved those moments when I felt like I made people smile.
Fast forward to today, I really love my current job. I work 3rd shift and the solitude is so refreshing. Truthfully -- and this is why I'm writing this -- the reason I started worrying that maybe I'm too introverted now, is because sometimes I feel like I could be the only one in the warehouse doing my work and be perfectly fine. I almost never initiate conversation with anyone. When I do, it's because I feel awkward if I don't. It's not that I hate people. On the contrary I care a lot about the human race as a whole. But I would rather try to help through actions instead of words.
My boyfriend on the other hand is extremely outgoing, and that's probably how we started dating in the first place. Sometimes I'm really jealous of his ability to talk to everyone effortlessly. I guess partly because, he'll probably never have to worry about others thinking he's weird.
Anyway that's all I wanted to say. I guess this was partly me venting and partly me trying to see if I'm the only person who relates to this, to such an extent.
I worked about 5 years in customer service before starting my warehouse job 6 months ago. And I did enjoy talking to the different people. But over time it really started to wear on me, because I'm definitively a people pleaser and would suffer extreme bouts of depression due to dealing with all of the different feelings people had. Especially when they were upset and I felt like it was maybe because of me. I wanted a break, however long, from having to take all that on all the time. Though I loved those moments when I felt like I made people smile.
Fast forward to today, I really love my current job. I work 3rd shift and the solitude is so refreshing. Truthfully -- and this is why I'm writing this -- the reason I started worrying that maybe I'm too introverted now, is because sometimes I feel like I could be the only one in the warehouse doing my work and be perfectly fine. I almost never initiate conversation with anyone. When I do, it's because I feel awkward if I don't. It's not that I hate people. On the contrary I care a lot about the human race as a whole. But I would rather try to help through actions instead of words.
My boyfriend on the other hand is extremely outgoing, and that's probably how we started dating in the first place. Sometimes I'm really jealous of his ability to talk to everyone effortlessly. I guess partly because, he'll probably never have to worry about others thinking he's weird.
Anyway that's all I wanted to say. I guess this was partly me venting and partly me trying to see if I'm the only person who relates to this, to such an extent.
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