I Am Happy
Where do I begin?
Last year, this site was my life, quite literally. I saw friends come and go. I never thought I'd be one of the ones who disappeared for months. But sadly I was. I do love each and every person on my friends list whether they believe me or not lol.
But minus my job (long story that would be a pain to explain right now) I'm insane amounts of happy. I'm content. Needless to say it's been awhile since I could say that and truly mean it. I've made friendships outside of this site, though I miss the ones I have here as well. I'm not seeking attention from anyone, including men anymore. I've realized I can't be happy and a whole person if I didn't acknowledge my issues with men, my issues with myself and how genuinely unhappy I used to be.
But now..... I'm in a relationship, a healthy one, with someone for almost five months now, he's amazing :-) I'm confident in myself, I've had bumps in the road and am going back to my healthy habits so I can continue with losing weight for my health. But I'm not on anti depressants and I function each and every day now, happily. Which used to be very difficult. My moods? What moods? :P Last year they were a constant rollercoaster for me and now... They are steady and evened out. I can't remember my last breakdown. I have goals, and things I'm working on now, but I feel like I've found myself and that's all I've ever truly wanted. I'm just happy.
Last year, this site was my life, quite literally. I saw friends come and go. I never thought I'd be one of the ones who disappeared for months. But sadly I was. I do love each and every person on my friends list whether they believe me or not lol.
But minus my job (long story that would be a pain to explain right now) I'm insane amounts of happy. I'm content. Needless to say it's been awhile since I could say that and truly mean it. I've made friendships outside of this site, though I miss the ones I have here as well. I'm not seeking attention from anyone, including men anymore. I've realized I can't be happy and a whole person if I didn't acknowledge my issues with men, my issues with myself and how genuinely unhappy I used to be.
But now..... I'm in a relationship, a healthy one, with someone for almost five months now, he's amazing :-) I'm confident in myself, I've had bumps in the road and am going back to my healthy habits so I can continue with losing weight for my health. But I'm not on anti depressants and I function each and every day now, happily. Which used to be very difficult. My moods? What moods? :P Last year they were a constant rollercoaster for me and now... They are steady and evened out. I can't remember my last breakdown. I have goals, and things I'm working on now, but I feel like I've found myself and that's all I've ever truly wanted. I'm just happy.
31-35, F
