I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings
The one thing I've wanted most from life is to find a tribe to belong to. Not the kind of "tribes" that we currently have on the planet; political systems & ideologies; groups; superficial relations, etc. I mean a tribe that feels literally like family, with an intellectual and spiritual kinship that can be registered on a deep level.
I've always felt somewhat out of place on this planet, being who I am, but I've also known that such a feeling was based on the current circumstances around me, as opposed to it being objectively the case. And such a feeling can easily be overturned by simply finding "the one" or a gang of souls that seem to "get it" - this unspoken communication that can't really be put into language but can be registered and felt.
With my logical and rational mind, it seems kind of doubtful that I could ever find such a thing. But it's as if a part of me already knows I have it on some level - I can sort of feel it or sense it. I'm simply playing this game of "catch up" with myself, and having to go through the step-by-step, moment-by-moment journey of seeing it all unfold and to truly value it when it arrives.
I've always felt somewhat out of place on this planet, being who I am, but I've also known that such a feeling was based on the current circumstances around me, as opposed to it being objectively the case. And such a feeling can easily be overturned by simply finding "the one" or a gang of souls that seem to "get it" - this unspoken communication that can't really be put into language but can be registered and felt.
With my logical and rational mind, it seems kind of doubtful that I could ever find such a thing. But it's as if a part of me already knows I have it on some level - I can sort of feel it or sense it. I'm simply playing this game of "catch up" with myself, and having to go through the step-by-step, moment-by-moment journey of seeing it all unfold and to truly value it when it arrives.