I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

I'm looking for people with whom I can share the following, product of years of woe and work. Hope it can help.

Who else here was slow to learn you're not important enough to deserve torture? Even if we have acted like thoughtless, selfish beasts at times?

Who else here, when lonely and afraid, created a nasty little imp for an imaginary friend, telling wonderfully intense stories about "rotten worthless you"? Did you listen to your imp for entertainment and masochistic comfort, when it felt too hard to find comfort elsewhere? 

Did these self-torture stories lead you to a pit of despair, like the make-believe grave I'd dug for myself? 

Did you escape your pit through the paradox of the Chinese fingertrap toy that one escapes by giving up the struggle and thinking?

Did you tell yourself, starting as a sort of goof: "I actually LIKE being down here! Is that so bad?"

Did this acceptance lead you to milk strength out of suffering by taking pride in your grim creation, your well-painted portrait of a black hole?

Did you realize that the impressive amount of concentrated labor you'd put into digging that pit proves that you're capable of creating much better things?

And simply, calmly, starting free from any feelings, did you find Easy Does It? 

When you started feeling fake, did you remind yourself, "I'm still tender and bandaged so a bit clumsy, but I'll improve"?

The more you repeated this acting, did it give you the strength to smile to the little imp, "Thanks for your story of Me the Hopeless Loser, my friend. It was a rip-snorter. I love you, but I think we should start seeing others."

Sometimes, when people suffer from severe depression, they can't tell people about it, because the feeling is so overwhelming.

I believe you should try to help her get over it in any way you can. My grandpa is depressed as well and the medicine he's been given isn't doing any effect, as the problem lays in him and he needs to want to get better. Try to cheer her, to make her know you're here for her.