I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings
I have realised I don’t hold a space in your heart anymore it was replaced with so many while we been apart and I’m ok with that now.
I felt this undeniable connection I felt deep within my burning soul but it was always one sided and I realise I got in to deeply and was unable to get out of it I had become weak and pathetic and I think you see this in me.
Am I mad at you for not feeling the same as me? ... No I’m not mad anymore I am more mad at myself for my behaviour for letting my emotions rule my life and mind for far too long I had got myself stuck in a situation I felt I couldn’t get out off you ruled my mind every waking hour and I let my emotions get the better of me and this made me feel mad and I felt pathetic but ... enough is enough.
I had to face the fact I was in this alone and had been for a long time and maybe I kept you stuck for all the wrong reasons it wasn’t the fact you felt this connection it was the fact I think you felt sorry for me and that makes me sad.
But I have found my strength and taken back my power over this whole situation I had spent far too long stuck in this feeling alone and unwanted I had to get out of it I didn’t want to feel that way anymore.
But I wish you well, I wish you happiness and I hope you find a love that keeps you warm at night, I hope you find someone who makes you smile all and i hope your happy and growing into the beautiful person I saw beneath all that pain.
I felt this undeniable connection I felt deep within my burning soul but it was always one sided and I realise I got in to deeply and was unable to get out of it I had become weak and pathetic and I think you see this in me.
Am I mad at you for not feeling the same as me? ... No I’m not mad anymore I am more mad at myself for my behaviour for letting my emotions rule my life and mind for far too long I had got myself stuck in a situation I felt I couldn’t get out off you ruled my mind every waking hour and I let my emotions get the better of me and this made me feel mad and I felt pathetic but ... enough is enough.
I had to face the fact I was in this alone and had been for a long time and maybe I kept you stuck for all the wrong reasons it wasn’t the fact you felt this connection it was the fact I think you felt sorry for me and that makes me sad.
But I have found my strength and taken back my power over this whole situation I had spent far too long stuck in this feeling alone and unwanted I had to get out of it I didn’t want to feel that way anymore.
But I wish you well, I wish you happiness and I hope you find a love that keeps you warm at night, I hope you find someone who makes you smile all and i hope your happy and growing into the beautiful person I saw beneath all that pain.
