I Want To Write My Random Thoughts And Feelings

To the woman I loved who I had do sadly say goodbye to. I think about you everyday and every night before I fall asleep with my thoughts of never ending sorrows of missing your presence and thinking about the memories I shared with you that I treasure in my heart for ever. The day we said good bye was the hardest thing ever as I wasn’t ready to let you go , I spent a year buliding my kingdom of confidence and happiness with your compliments and kind words. Our chapter wasn’t long enough although I felt like I had already became attached and that I felt we had something great between us , I felt an special connection of what I can’t explain as it warmed the coldness of my heart and I had faith in humans again and I had hope that their is decent humans out there if we search hard and deep enough. I miss how you made me smile through a thousand tears , I miss how you picked up them delicate broken pieces of my heart and feelings and some how manged to fix it. I miss how you used to make me laugh more than I have done before in my life , when you made me laugh I finally realised I could smile for the first time in years without faking my happiness. I miss it when you used to wait for me when everyone else had left and you used to take me to wonderland with your kind words of appreciation and wisdom giving me the hope I had lost years ago as I held your hand whilst we walked through every path of the darkness of my past. You used to always try and look for the best in me. You treated me like a lover , like a freind , you treated me better than the rest and you couldn’t rest until you made sure I wasn’t crying and smiling instead, you had a beautiful smile that lit up the room and I couldn’t help but smile back. You spoken like a fallen angel that was sent to look after Me , your voice was soft and you spoken innecontly. I loved you more than I could ever put in words. You was so pure , so delicate. I know that you had to leave me , when you did I left my heart leave to and something inside of me breaked and shattered into a million pieces when you had decided to completely end the chapter that could have been continued secretly. Our relationship wasn’t the easiest, we couldn’t make a move without them noticing , they kind of pushed you away from me. But every night I will go to bed and I will dream of you , hoping one day we will retinue , and if we did the birds will sing and the dark clouds will fade and disappear as we walk together into the sunset 🌅 I just wish you will always think of me , I hope you will never forget me , as I will never forget about you , i loved you with all my heart , the best things in life are always worth fighting for , I will always love you and I will always have a special place for you in my heart since I can’t hold you in my arms. I just wish you missed me as much as I miss you , I wish you peace and happiness. If I ever do have the courage to fall in love again , I will look for you in every person I meet and if I can’t find you then I will try and remember you for who you was whilst I let them into my life hoping they won’t hurt me like you did me.