How many kids do you have / want?

@CrazyMusicLover And what are people like you like? :0

@kimmy159 Health issues, traumas, bad genetics, odd personality. There's no way it could have any positive effect on a child growing up with me.

@CrazyMusicLover I'm usually a fan of odd personalities, so you can scrap that from the list ;p
I hope the health issues and 'bad genetics' aren't too bad for you though =(
As for the trauma's, (I won't speak for you or generalize it of course,) a lot of people who know how to deal with their own trauma's (as in keeping it in check) or who can keep it from influencing other people, can actually make up some of the best parents. Some wisdom only comes from hard lessons (even if it's sad we had to learn them the rough way...)

@kimmy159 It might not seem as a big deal but then your child goes to school and can't find his or her place then he or she suffers.
I have a big scar on my belly after a major surgery. It still hurts sometimes even after so many years. It feels as if my nerves were damaged there but maybe it's just some other issue I don't know about. I've had gallstones since puberty and Hashimoto's thyroiditis since early adulthood. All that means that I would have to have a very strong motivation to risk pregnancy. Then I would have to constantly check my thyroid hormones and probably do something about gallstones...All in all, if I felt emotionally strong enough to raise a child, I'd rather adopt.

@CrazyMusicLover I understand what you mean. I never felt like I belonged when I went to school. It sucked having to go through that. But looking back to it now, I wouldn't have wanted to adapt to whatever they were like. I'm more succesfull in life than any of them who used to bully me. But not everyone can thrive from a situation like that, that I fully acknowledge.
You seem like a strong person yourself, and rational too for knowing what you want/ can handle and what not ^^ I agree, it's not something to risk your health over :0