I Feel Life Is Just Passing Me By

I Don'T Know What To Do.... Why does life have to suck so much sometimes? I wish I cold just go back in time and relive my years as a child. Things were so much easier, now life is complicated and I just keep getting older and things don't slow down they move faster. Life is way too short and I have nothing to show for it.

Why did I ever move away? I moved cause I thought I needed to get away from my family and the cold weather but I have spent the last year waiting to visit family friends again and now I'm here I don't wanna leave. I am just laying here in my old room with my bag half packed. I don't know why I posted a status saying how much pain I feel. I don't like seeking attention I just need some love right now. I feel like absolute crap and my heart is in so much pain. Why do I have to be unemployed and living in a state where I know no one?

Sure it's warm, and I hate the cold more then anything but just being back in the cold for the first time actually in some strange way feels good. I am shacking and freezing but yet part of me likes it. I haven't liked it since I was a kid,

I can't leave but I must, why is it so hard? I have been crying off and on since I came back from church today. i can tell im stressed beyond belief cause I never cry. I haven't cried in a long time. I am just sitting here not moving, not packing just thinking about how much I am dreading what lies ahead. Things are only going to get worse, I don't know why I am writing this I guess I just can't bring my self to respond to anyone who asks me what is wrong right now. I need to get these feelings out.

This may be one of the few times I am online until later in the week. I don't know what is going to happen next. I am not in control of my life anymore. I don't know if I will ever be happy again. Right now I can only take one step at I time as I feel the pain in my heart and just wonder what life really could be like if only things were different. Will things ever be better? I don't feel like it, at least not right now. Who knows, I sure as hell don't.

refreshed88

Everyone needs a little bit of attention and sympathy, whatever doing. When everything is collapsing around You, always try to find a light in it. Maybe it's a cliche but that's the way it is. The change has to be made, under certain circumstances it's easier to make it. The world is tricky out there and bad things will always be happening to us. But it doesn't mean You're gonna die. Try once again and never give up. Sometimes is hard to make a step but once You notice some progress , You will forget about though time. Good luck!

life73

Life is hard n confusing. Especially when we know what we want but we don't know where it is or how to get it. We know what we want to be but we don't know why we can't just be that way. We do what we think is right but then it isn't how we thought it would be. Sometimes we have to try and plod along and hope that fate will help you get where the best place for you to be is. Chin up mate :)