I Wont Drown Myself In Pain Anymore
Why? It’s so addicting to pity myself and drow into sadness . It’s so satisfying. Is it normal? I don’t think so. But I do it . I had drown in river once it was near death experience I really thought okay, let’s just give up give up . But I was saved I’m lucky . I think back it’s like weed I come back in good mood sink back into that situation as I imagine . So here’s what I think: I drown, drown, drown, drown, drown slowly, very slow. I lose conscious little by little time feels like stopped , I can’t hear anymore, I can’t think anymore, I felt free, I was finally at ease I was losing conscious I become free and free.