I Have Anxiety

Ok so i live in a little town in the middle of England and have to travel 5 days a week to university. University is good and everything but i get panic attacks every time i get on a train to go back home. I cant move nearer the university because my daughter has finally settled here but I swear its getting harder and harder not to jump out in front of a train just as a reason not to come back to this toxic place. The only reason why i dont live out that daily fantasy is because of her, unfortunately she also ends up taking most of the repercussions of the panic attacks.

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Fatjosh69 · 36-40, M

Before anything bad happens talk to a therapist about your thoughts. You owe it to your little girl.

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

I had a therapist but between single parenthood, university and a part time job it was impossible to keep the appointments they gave me.

Fatjosh69 · 36-40, M

@Skele-pop666: well your priority should be keeping your life together for your daughter. Things don't usually get better on their own. There would be a resource center at your school...... check it out.

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

@Fatjosh69: i have. University coucillors are useless.

Fatjosh69 · 36-40, M

@Skele-pop666: I'm not trying to be a prick here but stop making excuses. Get your shit together and GET HELP. I've lost numerous friends to suicide and it fucking SUCKS. Imagine how your daughter will feel if she loses her mum? Think about that.

Fatjosh69 · 36-40, M

I realize you're busy but make your daughter your top priority. You need to live so she has a good role model....seeing you working hard for a better life will make hers worthwhile.

Skelepop666 · 36-40, F

Why do you think i havent done anything drastic. Why i am putting myself through added stress of a degree for a decent job and place to live instead of settling for a council place and benefits?
Doesnt make it any easier to handle this place though.

Carissimi · 70-79, F

@Skele-pop666: People mean well but don't understand because they are not in your shoes.

You have grit to do what you are doing. I've been where you are, although the area I lived was very nice, but I have lived in places that were not condusive to my wellbeing, so I get that too.

I wish you continued courage and strength. I went through 25-years of unbearable stress and distress. I'm surprised I'm still here. Just do what you have to, knowing it's only temporary, and you'll be able to move eventually.

Be well.