I can't think. I feel so bad. I don't think they knew I heard them. Now I feel like crap. My head is so fogged. I feel like I should keep at something. It's the "professional" and right thing to do. The thing is, is that I can't think. I'm going to have a nervous breakdown if I don't stop. I feel awful. I shouldn't have told them I could so it. I want so badly to explain to one of the people what's going on. I want them to know it wasn't easy and I honestly can't do it anymore. I want my friend to text me back and hopefully we can hang out, because I don't want my mom to see me stressed or snap. I'm not sure how long I can pretend to be ok right now.... I feel so awful. :( I just want it to be over. I want to run away and hide.