I Want to Die, I Have Nothing to Live For

I'm too scared to do it for real. But I really don't want to live anymore

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Rhodesianman · 56-60, M

I have died once although I knew nothing about it and sometimes wish that I hadn't been brought back as my heart is only working at only 25 percent ,I have a damaged spine and at 54 can no longer work .I have a defibrulator implant in my chest which is attached wirelessly to a monitor by my bedside which is a direct line to the hospital .However I am alive and have a family who would be heart broken if I wasn't here ,so I live each day as it comes. I am being kept alive on medication .