I Have Something to Say and I Want to Be Heard

Site is slow. No one's gonna see this. Time for one of my serious posts I guess.

All I do is make jokes on here because it's so much easier to not be serious. If I'm always sarcastic and never serious no one will pay attention to me and want to get to know me cause then that'll lead to feels and such. Do not want. You can't get hurt if you never let anyone in, right?

Everyone sees me around...maybe we interact on a thread or something but nobody really remembers anything about me. Most days I like it like that. Most days I'm also somehow desperate to be noticed and remembered. Most days I also hate myself too even though I'm pretty great. I'm not deep or interesting I'm just complicated. Too complicated for even myself to deal with.

That's it. Carry on.