Demi sexuality

Sometimes its kinda strange being demisexual, i seem very flirty here because its my personality and I joke around a lot but it takes time for me to actually be attracted to a person. You could say it has an element of asexuality to it as im not as sexually driven as most people.

People think its not a real thing but growing up its very evident from how other people operate. Its tough because people think if you dont show immediate obvious interest you'll never like them, but it takes me time and i have to be close friends first.

Can I think people are objectively attractive imo? Yes, but do I get a feeling inside that says "she's attractive" nope. Not until I already bond with them, and this is what makes it a strange experience. It made it hard to navigate that world with other people as they'd assume my intentions because of how they experience the world, and i wouldnt read them properly, it was a little isolating at times because of that.

It means long dry spells in between relationships (which I dnt mind) and in some ways more intense ones. Its a different life experience in a lot of ways, different drives, focuses, interaction styles.

Anyway just getting my thoughts out. Maybe theres other people like me out there.