I'm No Angel

I moved out here after turning 21 so I didn't have the opportunity to really make friends with anyone or really date outside of pizza and a movie. But recently someone new has come into my home life. His name is Angel he has blonde hair with black roots and brown eyes. All my life I've been put in situations where I learned how to react to being told what to do and the thing is... I long to help him or do by myself chores for him. He has a somber tone of loneliness and behind his eyes I see the girl I should want to be. But the thing is you taught me originality but the body and spirit of him makes him the white angel. Someone I long for as spirit. I am saving up all my money and all my courage to take him out buy him drinks and confess I long to be ultimately the best hearted person I can be to him without...somehow popping my bubble. Any thoughts?