I Am Afraid I Will Never Find Someone to Really Love Me

I look in society and see so many people happy and it makes me jealous and hurt. I don't think that I'll never find that person that will be interested in me like I'm interested in them. Every time I find some guy I'm interested in, it just never pans out. Like now, I've been I guess you can see involved with a guy. I mean we call each other baby. It's been over 2 years and he tells me he wants to meet me. Well every time a broach the subject I get one excuse after an other. He's busy, he works 7 days a week and it's hard for him to have time off, he doesn't have money. I've been very patient with him because he is going through shit like everybody else is and I'm giving him time to adjust. But I think it's been long enough and I am just about ready to give up on him. I mean I care so much for him but maybe for both of our sakes it may be best for me to let him go. I'm just confused on what I should do and I'm afraid if I do then I'll never find anybody to love me at all.