I Am Afraid I Will Never Find Someone to Really Love Me
My Past Is a Dangerous Place:
I'm quite young and readily afraid of what the future beholds. Of course I want to believe that I'm going to have a lovely husband that I'm head over heels in love with, one I'll meet in the next year or two while at college. Someone I can know for years and never wear out of them. But how can I expect something amazing when I'm interfering with someone else's relationship now? How can I confront my past when I meet the love of my life? How would I know to inculcate my heart and when to stop sheltering my past? My demons are hiding in unforeseen obscurity. I'm not sure on how I will treat you with sincere dignity and respect unless you demonstrate to me how you want to be loved. I'm masked behind imperfections, camouflaged by conclusive actions, attitude and animus.
I'm quite young and readily afraid of what the future beholds. Of course I want to believe that I'm going to have a lovely husband that I'm head over heels in love with, one I'll meet in the next year or two while at college. Someone I can know for years and never wear out of them. But how can I expect something amazing when I'm interfering with someone else's relationship now? How can I confront my past when I meet the love of my life? How would I know to inculcate my heart and when to stop sheltering my past? My demons are hiding in unforeseen obscurity. I'm not sure on how I will treat you with sincere dignity and respect unless you demonstrate to me how you want to be loved. I'm masked behind imperfections, camouflaged by conclusive actions, attitude and animus.
26-30, F